Bad Day

Today was hard! Actually, this whole week was very hard. Sam is in Lackland and they got phased back to phase one and he is in lockdown. Thank God we didnt go through with my trip out there that i had planned, becuase i would be sitting in the hotel room not even able to see him! Sam has not been able to talk much because they have been busy cleaning their room, and taking down all the pictures they had on their walls, they were allowed in phase three, but not phase one. So all of the decorating they have done has to be put away since they have inspections tomorrow. He is also at a very tough point in schooling where he has to take and pass a lot of tests, if he fails any he said he will be help back. That is also very stressful for both of us because if he gets held back then his orders could change and therefore our location could change. I know a lot of that was unlikely, but it still makes me so nervous. Since Sam has been so busy it has been really hard for me. It feels like BMT all over again, and i do not want to relive that. It may even be harder because at BMT i knew that he was not allowed to call, not he is technically allowed to but just does not have the time. I try and be understanding but it is honestly just not fair! We are newlyweds, supposed to be happy and spending every second together, laughing and being in love. I suppose the Air Force has other plans. we are still happy and still in love, but have to be so far away and not see eachother at all! I guess i should not be complaining so much considering we are moving to Hawaii in april and will have a great time there, i just wish it would come sooner! I just miss him so much and dont know if i will ever get used to the distance. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!